Depression

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Comment by Sarah on October 23, 2009 at 7:37pm

Thank you for all your support, guys. I took my happy pills and went back to bed, and I felt much better when I woke up. Then I spent a lot of the day helping to cheer up a friend who was really upset, which always helps to put things into perspective. =)

I have a lot of nightmares--or if not nightmares, then at the very least seriously disquieting dreams. Apparently it's been going on since I was a really small child. At least I'm not studying Nazi history anymore like I was in high school, so the Auschwitz dreams have stopped...

Thank you again. I am all smiles now. =)

Comment by Whitney Fawn MacEachern on October 23, 2009 at 3:48pm

Sarah, I know exactly what you're going through. Don't worry, sweets, you'll get through it, and will be better than ever. This won't last forever, nothing ever does, which I find to be rather encouraging. And like Maureen said, you can be your own worst enemy, so try to not be! Be gentle with yourself until this passes.

As for nightmares, they're awful, aren't they? At least we know they happen for a reason. Sometimes the reason is just the medication we're on. I've read that if the room is too cold, people will be more prone to having a nightmare. I've also noticed that if I've been really busy the day before, it's rather hard to come back down and relax from that, so I'll probably have a nightmare. I think it all comes down to relaxation. If the room is too cold, we're tense and can't relax because our bodies try to create warmth. If we've been really busy, we're tense from having so many things to do. So, I think to combat the nightmares, relaxation is paramount. Aside from that, relaxation is a good thing in and of itself, and helps to fix a whole lot of things.

Comment by maureen on October 23, 2009 at 12:15am

Sarah, If I a bad dream I am also ruined for the day. I am a slave to my Effexor and on bad days slave to my lorazepam. Maybe tomorrow will better for you. Don't be too hard on yourself, I know I can be my own worst enemy sometimes
xoxomo

Comment by Sarah on October 22, 2009 at 7:53pm

Wurgh. Don't you hate it when depression hits out of nowhere?

Went to bed last night feeling great (in the mental health sense) and having accomplished a lot. Woke up this morning from the middle of a hugely vivid and quite mournful dream (lots of animals dying, now I think back), and everything since has been a downward spiral. I logged on here and saw I hadn't gotten replies on one of my discussions and it made me feel awful, for no logical reason I can ascertain. And now my brain is just finding everything that's slightly off in the world and making me hate myself for it. I'm sleepy. FOR SHAME SARAH YOU FAIL AT LIFE. I have an overdue library notice. GO BEAT YOURSELF WITH A CUE STICK.

I hate this. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I know all I can do is take my Prozac like a good girl and go back to bed and hope that when I wake in the late afternoon with most of the day wasted that I'll feel like a human being again. The only thing I have to be grateful for right now is that my anxiety hasn't kicked in over the top. Yet.

Slave to the little green capsule,
Sarah

Comment by Talia J on October 12, 2009 at 9:47pm

i've dealt with depression my whole life, at least as far back as i can remember. Been off and on meds. Can cope better at times, and others am completely lost to it. Now am looking at the interactions between my depression and my physical symptoms. i can't find a link between good psych days and good physical days, but i keep looking. i want to be better but i don't know how to get there. Lots of therapy ahead and behind. Maybe there is not a link, but i'll keep looking anyway.Thanks for listening to me babble.

Comment by maureen on October 10, 2009 at 12:22pm

Talia, I know what you mean. Just the other day I felt as if I was becoming too comfortable with my misery. I don't want to share it with anyone...I just want to be alone. My dog, my cat and my misery.

Comment by Talia J on October 9, 2009 at 6:29pm

Just one of those days that i'm feeling the effects of everything in my head being so sad and lonely. Doesn't matter that in the real world i have friends and family. i just feel very blue, and i'm trying to not give in to it. Just wanted to let someone know what i'm feeling. so here it is

Comment by Jessica Arsena on October 2, 2009 at 8:57pm

Erin, being about to talk with your husband sounds like steps in the right direction :) Sometimes I wish people could just read minds and then we could avoid the whole communication thing...can you tell I'm an avoider too?!?

Comment by ERiN Wang on October 2, 2009 at 8:39pm

Yeah, he wants to fix it. And he tries to understand my pain, but he says he just can't get it. Anyway, we actually had a "date night" last night and had dinner out-- and actually TALKED over some of the messiness!! Wow! Usually we don't talk things through because he doesn't want to/ tends to avoid. So, it wasn't a fix-all for our problems, but at least we could talk about them some!! Yea!

Comment by Talia J on September 27, 2009 at 1:26pm

Erin. My husband is the type to freak out too. If its outside his control to fix then he doesn't feel like hes doing enough. It drives him crazy to not be able to fix me. He has done a great job of taking care of things around me to make it easier to not stress. So maybe letting your gusband know that by taking care of your little one and the stuff around the house he really is helping to make you feel better.i'm sorry things are rough i hope they can get better soon.

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